TNX

So this entry is completely out of the blue... But since this place feels like a diary, thought it would be good to put down my thoughts. If you're reading this, hi. It's just going to be a long ramble from here on out (⁠・⁠_⁠・⁠;⁠) I think many THX could empathize with each other on some level how difficult last year was for both the boys and the fans. We fought with everything we had and yet tasted bitter disappointment. The events after that, shook the fandom even more and I don't want to touch that right now. Personally, the whole thing was happening when many things were going wrong in my personal life as well and I was not coping well... I stayed far far away from things that caused me to become sad but I always held on to hope that I'd see TNX with a new song again. I kept checking even if I barely interacted with anything. Through it all, the only song I could bring myself to listen to over and over was Your Favorite Melody. Everything else kinda hurt.. Yes, I'm aware I sound dramatic sorry (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) Finding out a comeback was on the way brought the spark back in me. I was excited but nervous about how the new album would turn out. Hearing the teasers so close to the MV release made the excitement rise so much. I sat through the MV drop and had to pick my jaw off the ground right after. It was amazing. Everything about it I loved. The song itself? Look, I've been into Fall Out Boy and All Time Low since high school so adding rock elements to their song? Absolute chef's kiss. The choreography? So fun. I'm no dancer but I was itching to start practicing with my brother. The MV? So pretty. And I can't keep saying this enough, but seeing TNX have fun is always enough to make me smile. Watching the lyrics afterwards just made it more enjoyable. The B-sides were all well written. ALL OF THEM. And from the previews, I thought it would just be What If that would get to me but I cried the hardest during By My Side. Might be a contender for my favorite TNX song now. So what do I do to make this comeback more special? Summoned enough courage to enter a video call event. It's my first time and look, I'm so noona or whatever but I wanted to say how much I loved them and their music. I wanted them to know that I'm one of many THX who are like, 'Hey, we're here. We're listening. We love you'. And weeeellllll.. Let's just say I looked at the video of the whole thing and got so much secondhand embarrassment from just going on and on and on about how amazing they are. I think I finally pulled myself a little together for the part with Taehun but I will never forgive myself for telling Hwi that my favorite song from this album was 'By YOUR Side' (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) I'm sorry. I swear. I know that's not the title. I even wrote it down so I wouldn't mess up what to say but I was shaking the whole time and my mouth was moving faster than my brain. I'm so grateful the members were all patient and sweet as I kept talking. They were so grateful and it kinda kept me tethered to the whole thing in a way. I just hope my feelings got through even as it was buried under all my cringey-ness. A post got me thinking... Because it said something about you as a fan enjoying interacting with your idol but them seeing it as their job. I mean, I guess? Sitting there after the event made me reflect on that a little but after all that thinking I realized it didn't matter if they remember me (I mean I HOPE they don't remember my rambling self). But I hope it just got across how one more fan out there from the Philippines loves them and supports them. I think supporting my favorite group so they can keep making music and content that has made me so happy and has encouraged me is more than enough. Still here? haha.. it's going to be anticlimactic because I just wanted to say how much I hope TNX keeps making and performing music that they love. I hope that more people see and love them. Their passion for music is inspiring. Eagerly awaiting for the next comeback ୧⁠(⁠ ⁠˵⁠ ⁠°⁠ ⁠~⁠ ⁠°⁠ ⁠˵⁠ ⁠)⁠୨